I haven’t updated for ages! Partly because there’s not been much change medically – I’ve been focusing on healing and not messing anything up by over doing it, but also because it’s all been crazy busy too!
As most of you will know I’ve been healing from my surgery all over the summer which has been really tough going. It’s now been over 3 months since my op. I healed enough to return to work at the beginning of September (I had to as my job restarts every September but it gave me something to aim towards), and it has been really busy with lots of new students to get to know. I love my job but it’s been challenging returning, as I still have constant pain of a manageable degree and it doesn’t take much for me to feel totally exhausted. I’m repairing but still sore from surgery too. Plus I’ve had to push myself and do more hours to help us financially while Phil sets up the new business (which is going well, thank you everyone for your support).
My hair is growing and I can pretty much get it straight now with blowdrying and straighteners. And I can easily plait it and twist it up etc. If it dries naturally it’s still curly like I’ve stuck my finger in a plug socket but with a bit of product in even that can be tamed now. Lots of people are commenting that I’m looking more like I used to hair wise. I’ve missed my hair.
We have also managed to catch up with some friends. Going out takes it out of me big time but hey, sometimes it’s worth it. We had another ‘Come Dine’ at Mel and Deans – the theme was Africa. I was a zebra! Scarily there were 4 hunters! ha ha!
Lewis is now 15! He is so tall and growing up fast. We celebrated with a special chinese meal out at Banquet1408 in Colchester (his choice) and of course chocolate cake! He seems so much older some days.
But best thing of all is we also got the go ahead from my medical team for me to travel, I managed to get travel insurance agreed too. So I immediately got agreement from work, school and college for us to have a week out to go away as soon as possible and I booked us a holiday. As Phil now works for himself it was great as he didn’t have to get permission from anyone! ha ha! Makes a change! So on Tuesday 3rd October we set off for a luxury all inclusive holiday for a week – which we normally wouldn’t have been able to afford but because it was term time we could.
We had a wonderful time. The heat is different over there and it eased my pain so much. My body constantly throbs with varying degrees of pain, which I have gotten used to and manage to tolerate so I hope that most people don’t notice that often but it is wearing and takes it toll on me. While I laid on a sunbed, listening to the sea and totally relaxed in the warmth of the Turkish sun and I actually didn’t hurt. I have forgotten what it’s like not to hurt. It was weird but wonderful. But unfortunately short lived as we had some rainy days and before I knew it an agonising journey home.
It was great to have a week with my family – I am so lucky and so proud of them all. We told the boys they could have freedom to come and go and do what they wanted but they actually chose to spend all their time with us altogether. This made me so happy. As there were no ps4’s we had lots of time to chat – it made me sad to realise how hard it’s been for them and how much we all needed this holiday to get away – they needed it as much as I did. We rested, read, sunbathed, swam, chatted, shopped, played cards and ate obscene amounts of food! We had a fabulous week together and here are a few pics……
We stayed in a beautiful villa with a private pool for just a few guests. There were also a few other pool areas but we preferred the beach and the grounds. The resort was set amongst a stunning forest beneath the hills with pine, palms and pomegranate trees – it felt so spacious and calm. And the Turkish people can’t do enough for you – they were all so lovely. I hope one day we may go back again.
It was quiet and full of older people this time of year which was perfect for us for what we needed. It’s interesting having the time to people watch! I actually felt a little jealous that these people in their 70/80s looked healthier than I felt and could go on holiday so often to keep themselves healthy. I had to snap myself back to the now and remind myself how lucky and grateful I was to be there. It’s strange how your mind can wander. Sometimes it’s best not to think too much!
It was so nice to have a proper rest and not have to think what was going to be for dinner, or go to work or walk the dogs, or clean or shop etc….just to get away from the normal everyday chores that seem to take up so much of our lives. We didn’t even have to make our own beds – the kids absolutely loved this! omg how spoilt! I think we could all get used to this luxury all inclusive. I wish.
While on holiday I actually managed to read a book! Thanks to my friend, Katherine I am totally addicted to Jack Reacher! OMG if you love action/crime you must read – it was a real page turner. The character in the book isn’t quite described as Tom Cruise in the movie but it worked to visualise him anyway! ha ha. I love it how Jack can take so much but just keep on going and save the day! As there are 20 more books in this series by Lee Child I think this could be my answer to making me sit down and relax. I may not get much else done though!
With the help of great TV at the moment too…. Strictly, Our Girl, Cold Feet, GBBO etc! so much to sit and watch! I could become extremely sedatory and lazy! May do me good.
I’m also working on a new quilt for my nephew…. but it’s a surprise so no pictures yet.
So what’s next? I see Dr Loo, my oncologist, on Tuesday for a catch up – this will be mainly to discuss how I’m coping on the Exemestane (keep cancer away drug) – these are the meds which cause me extreme joint pain but needs must as it’s more important to keep the cancer at bay. When or if I get through this menopause (the hot flashes, nausea and dizziness are awful still) I could have the option to change onto another drug but they all have side effects of pain so I will stay on this one for as long as I can tolerate. I’m still using the Doterra essential oils to help with the pain – especially the Deep Blue range, along with a mix of Winter Green, Majoram, Eucalyptus, Rosemary, Lavender etc – it takes the edge off for a while.
Then in half term week I will be seeing Dr Griffiths, my plastic surgeon, to discuss the next surgery. This will be to tweak to new boob as they won’t do anything to match the other one up until they are sure the new belly boob is done and ok. It has a big dent where I didn’t have enough fat to plump out, which I could live with really. But I also have a painful lump where my stomach blood vessels were joined in my chest. This is still very sore and I have to be careful not to lift or overstretch and handstands are a definitely no no! I’m still not able to weight bear or yoga yet. Now the swelling has subsided and settled Dr Griffiths will be able to assess if there is any way he can help this. We shall see. I’ve had enough of surgery so I really need to discuss the benefits of more surgery. But I am definitely pleased I had this done as it feels so much better than the implant. I can’t believe how long I tolerated the pain and uncomfort the implant caused.
To heal my scars and keep my skin in good condition I have been using Rosehip oil, lavender and Frankincense. I was also using Helichrysum but that’s run out now and really expensive. As you can see I’ve healed well. I still look like a patchwork quilt but I only get in a bikini on holidays! Plus with all the food I’ve managed to put some weight on. My belly button is very strange and a bit off centre but again, I don’t get my midriff out much! ha ha!
Thank you to everyone who helped with the holiday organising from the support from school/college and work, Mandy for helping with the Doggie’s holiday, Mum for looking after our home and house animals etc, Hannah and John for picking up the dogs for us and Gwenie (Phil’s mum) for giving us some spending money which the children enjoyed buying fake clothing in Turkey with!
Now we are home, we will be catching up with friends and family.
Today my dad has been gone for 13 years already! I miss him terribly. But loosing him has always made me appreciate and value my family. Here’s him on my wedding day….
I have my 46th birthday approaching too – I appreciate every year and every birthday so much more now. I’m hoping to organise afternoon tea to celebrate but getting my family all available on the same day is so difficult. I may have to compromise this one. And then before we know it will be Christmas already! Time goes far too fast!
So until next blog post make time for your family and friends and enjoy each other xxx