I can’t believe how quick this year is whizzing by – not in a good way really. I think the whole of 2015 is going to be a wipeout year for us. There has been lots of good stuff to focus on too but unfortunately the horrible cancer stuff overrides everything.
I really hate cancer and what it is putting my family through!
But today is one of those days of reality and I have to face it for a bit.
So met with Dr Vivien Loo, my straight talking, no messing Oncologist! I love this woman – I love the way she tells me everything straight – no silly fluffing around the whole bad cancer thing!
Basically today was to discuss the next plan, there’s always a plan, and it is:
In about 10 days I will start radiotherapy, every weekday for 3 weeks. Focusing on the breast, chest, neck areas to blitz any stray cancer. I think she wanted to start sooner but because I have bad cording under my arm she wants me to see the physiotherapist before radio and to give me extra time to heal as she doesn’t want to risk my wounds opening.
Tomorrow I start Tamoxifen for 10 years – and fingers crossed no bad side effects – main one being ovarian cancer so any odd bleeding or stomach pain, straight up to hospital. It’s a bigger risk as I am pre menopause and this drug works by hitting the racing hormones! So will hit those ovaries and really make sure I hit the menopause – hello night sweats again I think!
Next week hope to start Herceptin – this is the targeted drug for the HER2+ hormone receptive cancer. Unfortunately Dr Loo is a little worried about the way I reacted to chemo in the past. So I will be admitted for the day. She would also like me to be given this via a vein and slowly – this way it could also be stopped straight away just in case. I will also be covered by extra antihistamines in case of a reaction again. If all goes well after a couple of treatments I could then have injections every 3 weeks for the year.
Normal side effects are flu like symptoms, extreme tiredness and a rash. Serious side effects include weakening of the heart which will be monitored by a muga heart scan every few months – but this can repair. It can also cause serious problems to the lungs – wheezing, coughing and breathlessness – if this happens I would be unable to continue. Really hope it doesn’t!
Some good news is that the cancer taken out had a growth rate of 20%. She said that if it was 15% it would be classed as slow growing. So I reckon 20% is good news!
So have a bit of organising to do and things should start again next week.
Today has been a reminder that this cancer journey is far from over. I am fed up already but need to stay positive for my family and just keep going. No other option is there really!